Friday, August 25, 2006
A normal day has passed... this leaves me wondering.. is a normal day more memorable.. or is a special day more impt.. regarding that i will be leaving soon..
Walking around town has always been part of usual pa-tuoing rituals since getting attached, feeling of walking around aimlessly with a girlfriend is definitely enjoyable, believe it or not. Shopped around for Jx's and sharon's present and luckily miran got good taste and foresight, we manage to get it in good time.
A gentle note to myself.. i gotta do my packing and purchasing of items pretty soon.. i'm not feeling good procrastinating all the time..
[ if you may.. do something that you enjoy
if you could.. do something for others
if you must.. do something for
someone]this is how i feel right now.. just before leaving.. with the short time that i have left.. there should be some priority on how i am spending my time.. ok.. number 1 rule.. i guess no more clubbing for me from now on.. total waste of time and no catching up with friends involved at all.. pubbing ok.. how can i ever give up my favourite brewerkz man..
to do it for someone.. and that someone will be none other than miran.. i will definitely set off to spend quality time together.. the blog is a testament to how i feel about this relationship.. no regrets at all.. miran you brought me to uncharted territories in my heart ever since u entered my life.. u left imprints deep in my heart.. there had been no one who entered my thoughts so often .. this relationship i will never give up.. fight on...
it is definitely so much easier to leave... however the ease of leaving of devouring me inside out.. the amount of hurt i can cause to people around me.. i can only imagine.. a major part of me
feels a longing down here.. yet.. i know i have to go.. i want to go too.. yes.. suffer now.. enjoy later! a tough decision to make but yet fulfilling.
Enough of sad stories that make tears flow like flushing toilet.. what more can i hope for.. i got a girlfriend worthy to be called a gift from heaven, a loving supportive family, a great bunch of good frenz.. i really have no room left to grieve.. leaving all these people may hurt.. but i do know one thing.. my mind is set on maintaining all relationships i have.. no matter where i am or what they are doing.. and i am staunch on decisions.. looking at it this way.. i feel much better.. trust i what i have..
Tomorrow will be a superb daY.. gonna get a watch first, finally i get to see something decent other than a suntan on my hand.. and head down to sharon's bday party, that hobbit is finally turning 21! hahaa in the event that she really does visit my blog and see this comment, i just pray she is maganimous enough to forgive me coz she does have the biggest heart i know..
*rather than giving a little for many, why not give all for someone*
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