Saturday, September 30, 2006

The day has arrived... 28th sept.. another day of going around to say goodbye.. it is so easy to take everyone for granted and not really cherish them when they are around you.. but it is just so hard to say goodbye..

anyway my grandma bought me one whole duck to let me feast before i actually leave.. i deeply appreciate that from my heart.. but my stomach did it's violent objections... haha yup.. today the time really flies.. u sit down and talk.. and before u know it.. 15 mins passed.. followed by 30.. then an hr.. so.. pacing around.. trying to think what i have not packed in.. what people i haven't bide farewell to.. time flies..

ok.. time comes.. lugging along my 50 kg luggages.. sitting behind in the compartment with miran, sis and mum.. 3 ladies of utmost importance in my life.. suddenly.. miran started crying.. and sis too.. followed by mum.. gosh.. my heart broke then.. wanted to cry too.. but i told myself to be strong...

at the airport..checking in was a bitch.. STA screwed most of us up.. in the register it only said 30kg.. but we were all promised 40kg.. and maybe a bit of allowance.. but anyway after a bit of repacking.. all of us managed to check in.. my friends came one after another.. and i thought to myself ' this is gonna be hard'.....

after chatting and mingling around with the different groups.. finally the time has arrived.. 0100hrs... as i make my way to the gate.. with miran beside me.. holding my hand.. i feel my hands not wanting to let go.. one last round of farewells.. i hugged everyone who came to send me..at first it was easy.. but after around 10 people.. tears start to well up.. and finally i broke down when i reached the BMT brothers.. totally lost it when i reach family and lastly miran..

it is really not easy at all... to say goodbye to your love ones.. and to proceed to a place where u know that it is not as comfortable as before... the uncertainty overwhelms me.. a lot of mixed feelings after i stepped into the gate.. surprisingly my tears stopped as soon as i walked in... that's good i guess.. i keep thinking of miran.. of the many good times we spent together.. my family... the many loving moments.. the many moments that i won't share with them for the time being...yes.. it hurts..

anyway .. once on the plane.. tiredness overwhelmed me.. zzz..

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Lip En pours his heart again
at |5:42 AM|

I know this blog came late, but i just couldn't bring myself to type out my feelings at the point of time.. now that i am in london already, there is this feeling to pen down my feelings before i leave..

well the past few days had been pretty hectic, with loads of rushing packing and calling overseas to be done.. pretty memorable time.. with my personal assistant miranda helping me, i guess most of the things were a breeze.. and my luggage was huge.. seriously huge..

feelings wise, i guess during this time.. i just couldn't bring myself to get excited or something, there is this deep sense of uncertainty that bugs me everytime i wanna have fun or something.. it is this sense of guilt that nibbles at your consciousness owing to the fact that i am not doing what i can to guarantee more security in London itself and shirking away this responsibility to do it.. well now that i am in london already, i have no regrets making the best of my time back in sg...

ok.. a chronograph of what actually took place..

Monday : loads of packing and purchasing to be done.. the fedex guy came too..
Tuesday : more packing to be done.. went out to meet huihuang, weiliet in the afternoon for a round of damn nice oktoberfest beer, at night went down to carrefore to purchase a lot of wasabi green peas and mindcafe after for a night of fun
Wednesday : doing the last bit of packing.. didn't go out until at night when i met gary and jx for supper.. oh.jx passed driving.. congrats man

one very memorable event that took place before i leave was definitely meeting up with my BMT brothers, we met up at mindcafe.. well this short meetup took a bit of momentum to build up.. at first it was slow with us deciding what to eat and what to play.. but once the kick sets in and everyone is more or less inclined to play the games... that's where the fun begins.. oh well.. we were all crazy and had so much fun back in camp.. so it wasn't hard at all to get everyone excited.. hahaa thanks guys, i miss that night so much.. 2 CARDS!!!! miss you guys man seriously..

oh thanks to jiexiang, gary, weiliet and huihuang for taking time off their busy schedules to meetup too!! take guys, miss you all.

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Lip En pours his heart again
at |4:39 AM|

Friday, September 15, 2006

sitting in brewerkz now, drinking a pint of extra IPA, satiated feelings after a round of suicide level buffalo wings and some mussels.. life is good.. very very good..

sitting down here, staring at the rain that had been there for the whole afternoon.. i wonder how much i will miss singapore weather when i am gone.. colin and guofeng left me to pursue their own adventures.. but at least we had lunch together.. well.. that's life isn't it? guy friends will only leave each other for other girls.. bloody girls..

tonight i will be meeting bro to watch the charity show at expo.. hope it will be nice.. ok enough blogging.. time to drink my IPA and get drunk.. HAHA the time is 4pm..

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Lip En pours his heart again
at |8:56 AM|

Thursday, September 14, 2006

2 more weeks and i will be leaving this sunny island singapore or whatever the authorities are trying to remake it into nowadays.. i shall say my life been pretty revolving around love and family nowadays.. and i am proud to acclaim i striked a balance in both of it.. anyway.. i cannot satisfy too many people at once can't i?

my feelings now.. tired.. apprehensive.. poignant.. nahh.. none of these, i got so many things on my mind i can't be bothered with my own feelings.. talk about neglecting one's mental well-being! anyway.. i discovered, people always say the person leaving has an easier life.. he won't be as sad.. i think otherwise.. the person leaving has the tears, expectations, hopes of the many many people he is leaving on his shoulder when he is leaving.. how the hell is he supposed to feel happy..? i'm fine.. i'm fine..

8 mths= 240 days= 5760 hrs= 345600 mins= 20736000 seconds
is this time too long to comprehend? to grasp? that sld be around the length of time that i will be gone.. i will miss everyone, miss my family, miss bak chor mee, miss every single thing i can lay my eyes on in singapore, most impt i will miss miranda too.. i'll be back... (mimicks terminator)

packing is almost done.. admin.. i cannot believe imperial actually didn't process my application, i sent that out 3 fricking months ago.. anyway i will call them today.. and make sure they give me an answer.. a lot of things have been happening recently..

miran's birthday is coming up.. my brain juice almost got used up thinking of what to do for her.. since it is kinda like a last present before i leave.. better make it nice.. with that in mind... i will get her #Y*$*^&*^#*$# (censored) .. haaa

To all the frenz who came to my hse during my bday, cheers! and yeah man good luck! oh happy birthday to sebas xinyi ying ying and all the sept babies..

appy

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Lip En pours his heart again
at |5:07 PM|

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

It had been quite some time since i last blog.. i guess it's not because i have no time.. but more of a fact i don't really have any energy to blog after a whole day out.. anyway i am at starbucks using their wireless connection to log on to the net and chatting away.. waiting for little men to screen at 5.30.. the time now is 5.06..

ok.. little men was not bad.. and it was not good at all.. so it's nowhere anywhere! predictable plot with very good comedy actors, i guess this show pulled things off pretty well. it will be under my recommended shows for pure relaxation and non-expectations.

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Lip En pours his heart again
at |10:07 AM|

Saturday, September 02, 2006

Rented She's The Man dvd and caught it with dear.. i can only say, bimbo shows are healthy to watch once in a while.. definitely it relaxes your nerves.. but i still prefer snakes on a plane, the show rocks man.. no pretentious scenes to try to win oscars, just pure plain entertainment..






For the first time since a very long time, i went out wif my mum, bro and sis to shop for clothes, OG is having this annual sale so we decided to get our stuff there.. haaa it is shiok to finally spend parent's money, i haven't got my mum to spend money on me for a long time.. it feels quite good but i guess i shouldn't do it often.. yup, anyway all of us got what we wanted and went home happy..

Next up i went down to chan's house to attend her bday party.. this is the first party in the series of parties i am about to attend, there is sebastian's, xinyi's and wesley's party coming right up.. haha.. chan looks gorgeous tonight.. second time since prom that i see her all dolled up.. it's incredible how dressing up can do magic to girls..
Party procession is normal, loads of catching up to do..eating tidbits, drinking syrups, checking out some friends that u may know but belongs to another group.. cut cake followed by going home.. i can say that her party was a success.. sumptous spread of food by the buffet table and all the dishes were delicious.. thanks for the great party!!

i love my forbidden fruits shirt.. cheers!!

sometimes you know that you will miss someone so much.. you just want to escape thinking about it.. the truth is.. what can only happen in the future.. stays in the future.. cherish what is happening right now.. don't lose a single moment of it, i don't wanna stop anything from happening, i want to live it to the fullest.. cheers..


































*If a man get to choose to be any day in a year.. don't ever choose 29th feb, he comes once every 4 years..*

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Lip En pours his heart again
at |5:17 PM|