Thursday, November 30, 2006
i should feel happy after two tests are over? i sld feel good? i dunno why i can't really feel it, merely just breathing more air and realising i am alive that's all. the past week had been so hectic i can't remember what i really did.. but i am so glad it is over and there is a good ending to it.
it is now 1.40am down here... just woke up after concussing at around 9pm.. dun wanna sleep yet.. sleeping quite a waste of time ar.. was scanning around the web.. facebook.. friendster and all... went through wesley's jiexiang's and a few other friend's profiles and display pics all.. the song that's what friends are for playing on itunes. felt so sad suddenly...
everyone has come thus far.. moving on along their own paths.. this led me to wonder.. so far.. have i led a life of no regret? i always tell myself that when i do things i have no regrets... but now i think back.. maybe i did neglect the friends and family closest to me... i did what i can.. but i feel i can do more.. this feeling consumes u more when the surroundings is quiet.. i am brought through flashes in time as i think.. deep inside i feel so sweet, so inspired... i saw scenes like, my night cycling days, bmt days, badminton semi finals, nationals, silver bayonet, farewell before coming london, all the camps i did, mount kinabalu, thailand.. feeling this deep sense of nostalgia.. this is so unlike lip en.. i guess even clowns do cry from time to time...
well what i did is just really to make a silent note to myself i am gonna treasure those dearest to me ever after.. whether i can carry that out, i will leave it till another day. but i know i can lar of course..
anyways, xmas test and driving test is finally over!! all the frenzy over tutorials and unfinished lecture notes is temporary shelved and i can start feeling like a human again, not some tutorial factory and all.. and it is quite good to know that u will pass the xmas test and got A for driving test. it doesn't count much, but seriously programming is my achilles heel.. feeling so good man. hahah and mambo jumbo tomorrow night promises some relief amongst this mundane lifestyle nowadays. hope it turns out fine..
oh and mum, i saw the pics of your colleagues who celebrated birthdays at our house, it was wonderful!!! made me remember my own birthday celebration too! it was such a blast. alright! time to sleep... haiiz i still feel sad.. i miss all my friends..
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Lip En pours his heart again
at |1:44 AM|
Sunday, November 26, 2006
sunday morning i wake up and thought to myself 'shit the wkend is ending' .. this wkend i did nothing of the sort anyone will call fun, i tried to jog but the old hip injury was acting up and acted real bad.. so i missed floorball and jogging totally, sorry to william for travelling down and ended up jogging yourself. well at least i had a dream of finishing some tutorials before the saturday ends. but NOooOOo frequency response is so darn fricking hard, i really have no idea how the tutorial goes.. depression mood sets in. that's where a good girlfriend like miranda comes in. haha we siphon our stress to each other and then everything is good once again. hahaa
last night went over to daryl's and hock's to plan our netherlands, belgium and luxembourgh trip this dec.. quite ma fan to settle all the admin stuff, tho i didn't help much coz i didn't bring my laptop, i read thru lonely planet to check out some main attractions. amsterdam sounds damn fun, so are all the other places. but that's another story for another time. yup. so looking forward to it man. and for this week to end.. and for xmas and driving test to be over. driving as in computer programming test. dunno why they call it driving. anyway i was berated for not bringing my driving license over here. haaa how the hell i know i will want to drive here man. anyway yeah nxt year then. ok now back to more tutorials and enjoying my sunday!
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Lip En pours his heart again
at |8:31 AM|
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
just some pictures to date
ok long long long time since i last blogged, life so far been good.. stressful i guess.. there was a time when i actually just thought to myself wtf am i doing this course but it was only a little while .. there is just too much stress on us right now. feels like a long time ago i saw a bright and happy smile on the guys' faces in EE.
anyway sunday had been pretty productive, after printing out the tech communication essay i felt an immense sense of relief, at least i cleared a big chunk of shit in front of me.. the happenings in the past few wks i will just use photographs to illustrate, everything is pretty good i guess, esp notts games. i had so much fun then, seeing old friends and all was incredible.. not to mention that scoring a goal for imperial..floorball is damn fun!
just attempted to finish what i didn't finish last week during computing lesson, oh well i can say that it is not hard to understand what is going on, but when it comes to applying i take quite a long time.. didn't realise what a slowpoke i am.. i always take a lot more time to do tutorials as compared to others.. i am trying my best to churn on tutorials already but yet i am not able to finish most of it. with deadline of design project around the corner, i think i gotta sort out my priorities. this wk i am gonna try to mug as much as possible without losing sense of myself i hope...
regarding personal life, life is damn shiok i guess, with many things to look forward to.. sometimes things get you so busy.. u don't have time to do things that u need to or want to.. time to do some self reflection i guess.. and miran if u are reading this.. i am thinking of u when i am typing this.. so i am still thinking of you yeah?
i need to be more productive!! anyway today was bad, lectures was bad as usual, i came out not understanding more than 10% of what the profs are saying.. i wonder is it them or me.. this only means more mugging. shit..anyway another day tomorrow, ganbatte jiayoU!
anyway fengyi turned 21 last wk, it is time to 'BE a MAN, do the right thing'
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Lip En pours his heart again
at |12:44 AM|