Tuesday, December 26, 2006
did half a day of shopping at oxford circus in the morning till afternoon.. it was quite a madness out there, but it ain't all a surprise as the great singapore sale kinda matches up to the post xmas shopping craze out here. the only interesting thing that happened was that some idiot knocked over some cap in zara at regent street, set off fire alarm and caused pandemonium in the store itself. ended up i couldn't really go check out the merchandise not to mention the loss in revenue of the zara people. the only people rejoicing is actually the workers coz they can really slack. hahaa oh well i went on a small spending spree and got nothing i actually i wanted. just got things i wanna buy on impulse and impulse i followed.
xmas had been damn boring this year, basically spent it resting and trying to recuperate from the ski trip. the night was spent at evelyn gardens with a potluck among the freshers, pretty cool event i shall say, tasted everyone's file culinary skills.. and my white chocolate vanilla cream liqueur was commented to taste like tao ni (soya bean) which i couldn't agree more with. however it taste nicer than tao ni.
more abt the ski trip.. it had been so fun.. it started with the first few days in which everyone had trouble putting on their skis and trying to understand what it means by going downslope, maintaining balance all.. pretty memorable first hand experience at skiing i shall say..
however after a few days of practicing and honing our turning skills everyone progressed to the tougher blue slopes and started to look like proper skiiers. towards the end most of the people are already whacking red slopes and looking damn pro. this ski trip had been most memorable at best. i definitely didn't want to come back to london towards the end... the feeling is such that u had just acquired a new skill, wanna test it out and explore all possibilities but suddenly u have to come back and face the real world all over again. that sucks max..
anyway i will definitely go back next year.. it had been so fun.. that is kinda the lifestyle i look forward to, wake up early, eat good breakfast, exercise the whole day. eat another 2 healthy meals and seek entertainment at night. sooo fun! hahaa ok i want nxt yr to come quick..
i hope really that i am making full use of my time right now.. this holidays have been heavenly compared to term time.. it is just totally abt play and play and play nowadays... not much work to be done and all.. totally cherish that. i guess the only time i will start working is when i come back from the next trip...
independence... how far am i from that word.. i want to know.. am i independent when i am thrown out into foreign land and no means to communicate with love ones.. or am i independent when i know what is right and what is wrong? i guess it is a bit of both.. shit.. i am turning 22 soon.. oh well.. that's life ain't it..
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Lip En pours his heart again
at |9:20 PM|
Friday, December 15, 2006
it is now end of autumn term.. things are ending for a while.. next up.. ski trip, netherlands and belgium trip! wooh.. time to really enjoy myself and tour around..
organised a EEE outing for this end of term, it was a good turnout of 8/9 in which keith unfortunately was held back by the supreme lord chancellor, the evil queen of EEE who requested he finish his project. i shall say... yeah suay! hahaa we had a few drinks over at international hall, watched a movie together, enjoyed the movie totally on fengyi's 19 in LCD and superb speakers with this dua leng gong amplifier, damn shiok. long time nv enjoy an enjoyable sausagefest. yuP it is 8 guys! but it was so fun! haha well i believe this outing is good.. coz we are all gonna be together for at least the nxt 3 yrs.. so it's good to forget all troubles and work once in a while and get together! and i feel quite sian staying at home so therefore decided that this will do my system some good.
tomorrow is officially the ski trip, gotta meet at victoria coach station at 5.. leaving at 6 for a 17 hr bus ride.. i hope at least the coach has a toilet, else i really gotta pee out of the window!
good friends are just so hard to come by!!! i really appreciate all those friends around me right now.. they are the ones keeping me going. i derive motivation from seeing them around.. this period of studies in london, i think it is a journey of self discovery.. as much as i will like to think i have grown a lot in singapore back in army.. well i am quite proud to say i discovered myself further down here.. down here i am faced with a totally different kind of challenge.. i am faced with imbeciles from all over the world and total geniuses too. faced with the task of managing my own life, how i wanna screw it up or i wanna be a disciplined individual who haves enough fun and have enough discipline to walk the correct path and DO THE RIGHT THING. down here, well it is quite interesting to talk abt how rich everyone is.. coz everyone who is anyone who comes down to london on FMS(father mother scholarship) needs to be pretty well off in the first place.. yup.. that's why.. i find it so.. irritating.. hahaa... i have to admit.. this subtle sense of jealousy had been there since sec sch.. and is still there now.. envious? maybe.. so what if i am proud i am where i am, i still wish i was rich. but who cares.. what is impt is the pathway we can pave not the one paved for us back then..
nowadays i keep having fragmented memories of the past coming back.. those sweet times i had with miran and the times i had in army, the glory matches back in badminton.. all coming back.. i believe the fact that i am not kept as bz with activities back in sg left my mind wondering.. the euphoria of the badminton matches.. the sweet bitter feeling in the heart with miran, the character building and reassurance back in army.. whenever i savour those feelings. i feel more motivated to perform better right now.. i really relish those times.. if not for those i won't be what i am right now.. what is it i seek in life... ? haha this question sounds religious.. i just want to answer to myself. what is it i seek in life... what is that? i am not seeking salvation or seeking answers.. i just want to get a feel of what i want in life.. so far i am living a reactive life in which i have tonnes of fun simply reacting to the external changes in life.. i definitely want to have a fulfilling life.. in which i look back and i see no empty slots. yet.. if i see life that way.. it seems like a lot of stuff to do.. yet seemingly unimportant to the future.. i am so confused, so far i am simply taking a scholarship that matches my interest and studying a course that places me a job in the company and gives me a job.. not sure how much i am gonna like job and all.. end of the day.. i am so sure of one thing.. the journey to overseas studies haven't been a wasted trip.. i am enjoying every moment of it.. it brings me places and me to do things i nv thought i can go through. i feel so much more confident of myself now...
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Lip En pours his heart again
at |1:53 AM|
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
for once since i came down to london i felt that school is slack, finally enjoyed the feeling of having 2 hrs of lesson the whole day and doing what i want. goodness, i realised how busy i was before this. but thinking of it.. the school fees are like 51.5k a sem, i gotta make full use of school time eh? haha
yeah now sitting in the corridor of EEE building waiting for edsel to go swim. one more driving test and i can relax, life is looking rosy man. haha good stuff!! last night i caught the musical We will rock you with wesley, i shall say it wasn't that superb, a fundamentally stupid plot which was complemented with good music. Ended with a blast and that's it. didn't leave me hungering for more and all.. so i guess it wasn't that good.
going skiiing on friday!!! woo! how shiok is that, gonna leave at night and take this super duper long train ride to Les Arcs, not very prepared yet but will go down to primark to get the remaining stuff tomorrow. i wish everyone is doing well everywhere, back in sg, down in US and in their work and all.. i miss everyone.
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Lip En pours his heart again
at |10:59 AM|
Thursday, December 07, 2006
end of term is coming..closer and closer it gets.. shit blardie homer(my project grp partner) who didn't even contribute anything to the project is now telling me he needs to go for a holiday after end of term basically it means i do everything and he leech. fricking ass.. but i guess that's the way life works, bastards get everything and good guys work hard for their everything. but at least i am a good guy, anywayz enough of things that irates me.. sometimes i just don't understand, is it becoz i am older than them gone thru army and stuff that's why i feel that they are such childish imbeciles or they are just inherently idiots.
and.. design project is really quite a bitch, i aim and hope to finish by this wkend definitely, there is no doubt abt it. yeahh just borrowed ski equipment from chiong wai, thanks man, i may have saved a bomb on that.. departing for ski trip nxt friday, so it is gonna be pretty rush, i am so looking forward to taking a break from all these stuff that i have piled up.. yup those who are going back, enjoy urselves!! i am sure basking in singapore sun is gonna be super shiOk not to mention the food that u get to savour back there. if anyone is nice enough, please go ask the neighbourhood roti prata uncle how to make roti prata and pass it on to me!
today is the 7th month miran and i have been together... it started off rocky in that she thought i forgot abt it, but it was totally funny coz my watch had been adjusted to show that it was 5th yesterday, that's why i kinda thought tomorrow is the actual day, but still yeah today sld be the actual day. i guess the conversation yday was not exactly normal coz it was on the 7th month itself, there was some evaluation done and things didn't turn out very happy... i suppose what sparked off the argument was really a fact that nikk is enjoying all the blisses in life, all provided for by junxian.. and i am not exactly responding to her wants at all.. i aint one who is very sensitive and everything.. maybe becoz she's my first gf or what i dunno how to pamper her till she drops or simply practically, i have not much time to slot her wants so often into my schedule. i really dunno what's the reason why i am not performing up to standard. it makes me feel like crap everytime, i am sure it is not the monetary parts that she thinks i am lacking in. however i am very sure if i dump enough money.. she will be happier? where is this leading to anyway.. i really have no idea, yes i do want to buy presents for her etc etc but that's a little like going thru the motion isn't it.. she ask for it i give it to her and she feels happy, then she ask for it again then i give again, is it coming from deep inside me, i say NO! i dun want that.. i love her for all my life and i want to do things whole heartedly.. my confidence is kinda broken. and end of story.. just forget this issue and move on man..
today is another long day full of work and i definitely must finish the design project by this wkend.. ( i tell myself this over and over again) and i am gonna get drunk after it.. what's wrong man.. i feel that i am lacking something in life right now.. not motivation, not becoz i am too bored.. i am lacking a buddy down here.. oh well to each his own.. time for school it is 9am right now.. i hate looking back.. it makes me happy, coz i had such a wonderful time before.. i shall look forward then, no matter what we were borned with eyes looking forward, there sld be a reason to that..
*stupidity is defined by making simple things complicated*
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Lip En pours his heart again
at |8:44 AM|
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
a week has passed since xmas test.. so far so good! got back digital electronics and well got a pretty commendable grade for it. this whole week is gonna be pretty busy with design project.. well i don't really have a partner who is doing much for this project. so i gotta put in 2x worth of effort.. anyway forget it.. i am just gonna suck it up and move on.. sounds familiar? suck it up or suck thumb. so i will be doing it tomorrow, tomorrow's tomorrow and tomorrow's tomorrow's tomorrow..
last night was a fun filled night made colourful by the musical the producers.. caught it at royal theatre and it was a whole load of fuN! the type of musical that u wanna catch it over again next yr and which brightens your day totally. I really liked the characters inside and the way they acted was amazing, there was this guy who acted as a gay hitler, this really gay guy with a small butt and accentuated his every last syllable.. haha then the main female lead who sang very well and loves to have sex at 11. ahaa so nice. will catch it next year again for sure!
a comment abt mambo jumbo last wk.. haha it was rather sad to say that event was actually considered quite a flop.. but nevertheless fun loving people like us still managed to have fun down there. saw a lot of good frenz and had one hell of a time saying hi's and chit chatting around.. well it felt sooooo singaporean down there. everyone was kinda sticking to their own grps and not that much of socialising, but still it was pretty good i guess. maybe i just missed clubbing.. and it is pretty fun to go with frenz u nv went with!
wkend was spent resting and ice skating in kew gardens.. kew gardens.. hrmm nothing much except it has really nice scenary.. and i fell a few times on my butt which kinda hurts! hahaa
officially got tickets for we will rock you next monday! i am so looking forward to it.. but it is back row seats.. so i am reserving judgement yet.. it is another long nostalgic night... i am thinking.. miranda i miss u so much... hahaa lonely nights like this ain't the best times of my life i wanna keep in my blog forever, but they are nevertheless precious. Miss u so! whooT!
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Lip En pours his heart again
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