Thursday, December 07, 2006
end of term is coming..closer and closer it gets.. shit blardie homer(my project grp partner) who didn't even contribute anything to the project is now telling me he needs to go for a holiday after end of term basically it means i do everything and he leech. fricking ass.. but i guess that's the way life works, bastards get everything and good guys work hard for their everything. but at least i am a good guy, anywayz enough of things that irates me.. sometimes i just don't understand, is it becoz i am older than them gone thru army and stuff that's why i feel that they are such childish imbeciles or they are just inherently idiots.
and.. design project is really quite a bitch, i aim and hope to finish by this wkend definitely, there is no doubt abt it. yeahh just borrowed ski equipment from chiong wai, thanks man, i may have saved a bomb on that.. departing for ski trip nxt friday, so it is gonna be pretty rush, i am so looking forward to taking a break from all these stuff that i have piled up.. yup those who are going back, enjoy urselves!! i am sure basking in singapore sun is gonna be super shiOk not to mention the food that u get to savour back there. if anyone is nice enough, please go ask the neighbourhood roti prata uncle how to make roti prata and pass it on to me!
today is the 7th month miran and i have been together... it started off rocky in that she thought i forgot abt it, but it was totally funny coz my watch had been adjusted to show that it was 5th yesterday, that's why i kinda thought tomorrow is the actual day, but still yeah today sld be the actual day. i guess the conversation yday was not exactly normal coz it was on the 7th month itself, there was some evaluation done and things didn't turn out very happy... i suppose what sparked off the argument was really a fact that nikk is enjoying all the blisses in life, all provided for by junxian.. and i am not exactly responding to her wants at all.. i aint one who is very sensitive and everything.. maybe becoz she's my first gf or what i dunno how to pamper her till she drops or simply practically, i have not much time to slot her wants so often into my schedule. i really dunno what's the reason why i am not performing up to standard. it makes me feel like crap everytime, i am sure it is not the monetary parts that she thinks i am lacking in. however i am very sure if i dump enough money.. she will be happier? where is this leading to anyway.. i really have no idea, yes i do want to buy presents for her etc etc but that's a little like going thru the motion isn't it.. she ask for it i give it to her and she feels happy, then she ask for it again then i give again, is it coming from deep inside me, i say NO! i dun want that.. i love her for all my life and i want to do things whole heartedly.. my confidence is kinda broken. and end of story.. just forget this issue and move on man..
today is another long day full of work and i definitely must finish the design project by this wkend.. ( i tell myself this over and over again) and i am gonna get drunk after it.. what's wrong man.. i feel that i am lacking something in life right now.. not motivation, not becoz i am too bored.. i am lacking a buddy down here.. oh well to each his own.. time for school it is 9am right now.. i hate looking back.. it makes me happy, coz i had such a wonderful time before.. i shall look forward then, no matter what we were borned with eyes looking forward, there sld be a reason to that..
*stupidity is defined by making simple things complicated*
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Lip En pours his heart again
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