Friday, December 15, 2006
it is now end of autumn term.. things are ending for a while.. next up.. ski trip, netherlands and belgium trip! wooh.. time to really enjoy myself and tour around..
organised a EEE outing for this end of term, it was a good turnout of 8/9 in which keith unfortunately was held back by the supreme lord chancellor, the evil queen of EEE who requested he finish his project. i shall say... yeah suay! hahaa we had a few drinks over at international hall, watched a movie together, enjoyed the movie totally on fengyi's 19 in LCD and superb speakers with this dua leng gong amplifier, damn shiok. long time nv enjoy an enjoyable sausagefest. yuP it is 8 guys! but it was so fun! haha well i believe this outing is good.. coz we are all gonna be together for at least the nxt 3 yrs.. so it's good to forget all troubles and work once in a while and get together! and i feel quite sian staying at home so therefore decided that this will do my system some good.
tomorrow is officially the ski trip, gotta meet at victoria coach station at 5.. leaving at 6 for a 17 hr bus ride.. i hope at least the coach has a toilet, else i really gotta pee out of the window!
good friends are just so hard to come by!!! i really appreciate all those friends around me right now.. they are the ones keeping me going. i derive motivation from seeing them around.. this period of studies in london, i think it is a journey of self discovery.. as much as i will like to think i have grown a lot in singapore back in army.. well i am quite proud to say i discovered myself further down here.. down here i am faced with a totally different kind of challenge.. i am faced with imbeciles from all over the world and total geniuses too. faced with the task of managing my own life, how i wanna screw it up or i wanna be a disciplined individual who haves enough fun and have enough discipline to walk the correct path and DO THE RIGHT THING. down here, well it is quite interesting to talk abt how rich everyone is.. coz everyone who is anyone who comes down to london on FMS(father mother scholarship) needs to be pretty well off in the first place.. yup.. that's why.. i find it so.. irritating.. hahaa... i have to admit.. this subtle sense of jealousy had been there since sec sch.. and is still there now.. envious? maybe.. so what if i am proud i am where i am, i still wish i was rich. but who cares.. what is impt is the pathway we can pave not the one paved for us back then..
nowadays i keep having fragmented memories of the past coming back.. those sweet times i had with miran and the times i had in army, the glory matches back in badminton.. all coming back.. i believe the fact that i am not kept as bz with activities back in sg left my mind wondering.. the euphoria of the badminton matches.. the sweet bitter feeling in the heart with miran, the character building and reassurance back in army.. whenever i savour those feelings. i feel more motivated to perform better right now.. i really relish those times.. if not for those i won't be what i am right now.. what is it i seek in life... ? haha this question sounds religious.. i just want to answer to myself. what is it i seek in life... what is that? i am not seeking salvation or seeking answers.. i just want to get a feel of what i want in life.. so far i am living a reactive life in which i have tonnes of fun simply reacting to the external changes in life.. i definitely want to have a fulfilling life.. in which i look back and i see no empty slots. yet.. if i see life that way.. it seems like a lot of stuff to do.. yet seemingly unimportant to the future.. i am so confused, so far i am simply taking a scholarship that matches my interest and studying a course that places me a job in the company and gives me a job.. not sure how much i am gonna like job and all.. end of the day.. i am so sure of one thing.. the journey to overseas studies haven't been a wasted trip.. i am enjoying every moment of it.. it brings me places and me to do things i nv thought i can go through. i feel so much more confident of myself now...
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